My heart's so jet lagged.

Been thinking of '95 more & more honestly.

SPEECH DAYYYYYYY. Finally.
I have no claims of any of the pictures so thankyou to Photographers Quah, Wong & Hor. (:



































I really love the last picture, everyone's so mushed up together.

Looking forward to batch movie soonsoon. (:

Anyway, I feel happier these days.
Despite the occasional moodswings, I'm still doing fine.
No longer feeling very upset or whatever, cuz I'm flooded with the love from my friends.

Immensely thankful for the people around me who's always been there.
I'm not gonna like waste my time being upset over one thing when God's given me so much more that I can be grateful & thank Him for. (:

So, whoever's feeling down, cheer up & smile.
You're loved & blessed! (:

Hey sunshine.

Was on FB this morning & 102948475 thanks to Ying for uploading these pictures!!
Cuz I smiled when I saw them.
I miss my '95. ):

'95, Forever

Not any proper updates for now because not all the pictures are up yet.
Speech Day with my dearest 95,
was our last performance to conclude our journey in NHDS.

After coming home from Speech Day & washing up,
I cried like mad on my pillow.
& I saw the spam of emo tweets by my sisters.
& it just made me cry even harder.
I really just can't believe everything's over.

Just a simple update for today,
will promise to do a proper one soon. (:

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Was on Tumblr & it made my day with all the pretty pictures.



I'd smile forever to see this.

& there were some I could relate to. Hmm.

(Part of) Worst feelings in the world...

Having to look at the face of the person you love, knowing they won’t love you:



The feeling of being forgot, unwanted, not good enough:

Yeah, I figured that nobody's gonna treat me right if I don't start loving myself first.
& that it's pointless, I keep wasting myself away with all these sadness.
It's unfair for me, so what for keep flooding myself with the unhappiness that I put upon myself?
I am strong, & I'm sure I can make it through. (:
Thanks Tanji. (:

Have you ever had a dream that felt so real?

Had one of the worst mornings today.
Keep waking up in between my sleep last night & my mind would be spinning whenever i opened my eyes.
Felt so terrible when I woke up at 6am today, so I went back to sleep till 7.

& once again, I woke up after a dream that made my heart sink all the way to the bottom of my bed.
It felt so real, yet during the dream I dreamt I could actually just pull it off with a shrug.
But when i woke up.
My mood was ruined, entirely.

It cheered me up though to walk to school with 95. Ever so thankful for my bunch of sunshine.
(:
BBFC & autographs on purple balloon! (:

Ah, life's been pretty mundane and empty these days.
& during English today we're supposed to do our essay plan about Dreams.
To help us gain inspiration, Ms Koh made us think about our happy place.
Yeah instantly, I thought of







I'm really thankful to be able to dance.
Amongst these happy thoughts of dancing my heart out at NAFA,
suddenly these pictures, scenes rather, flashed across my mind.







Then I realised why I suddenly thought of my 95.
Tomorrow will be our last dance.
Before we've to permanently step down from the stage of NHDS, with nothing left but memories.
It's all too fast.. );

Honestly I don't dare to imagine where will everyone go after leaving NHDS.
Like. I miss my brothers & sisters so dam bad.
Can we, don't go?
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No doubt, I thought of you.