I won't give up

Delicate.

I don't even know how to start this post.
Been typing but back spacing everything again & again.

The fear of being forgotten by someone who means the world to you is really overwhelming me I just give into it.
I can't & don't want to go through this again.

Been blinded by what I deemed as priority in my life that I forgot how much she means to me.
The worst thing is, I'm not even doing my part to help her.
So many times I've told myself to spend more time at home to accompany her.
I didn't.

I don't want to wait till things become more dire then start regretting.
I'm sorry for the times I've neglected you & got you all so edgy & worried while waiting for me to get home everyday. 

Can't help but cry so badly as I'm typing all these out.

"but you gotta hide those tears & appear strong cuz she's gonna need you there. "

grandma please be healthy and well again
i love you.